I have felt a bit ashamed that I have attacked this so poorly. I thought I could just easily decide to ENJOY things. But so easy it is for me to see the problems, the frustration, the discontentment.
My husband made me a beautiful metal sign with the word ENJOY. It sits above my kitchen cabinets for me to see the 50 million times a day that I walk into that room. And still, I struggle.
Daily, I walk in and see the dirty dishes, the dirty floor, the piles of paper, the dusty window.
I am reading Ann Voskamp's book, one thousand gifts. I warn you now, this is profoundly changing my perspective. You will hear me talk about it a lot. The hard part comes in how exactly to put into words the stirring inside of me.
What I know and can express right now is this. I am not ENJOYing life because I am not thankful for the things that God has given me.
Ouch. That hurts to even write to admit.
And being thankful to the point of ENJOYment is not something that happens overnight. It takes practice. So very few things in my life require me to practice. But then I think, how much am I not accomplishing because I am not practicing?
So I start here:
He prayed three times a day, just as he had always done, giving thanks to
his God. --Daniel 6:10b NLT
It starts with practice...practicing thankfulness.